Sunday, January 31, 2010

"Do not believe solely in what the eyes see."

There is great abundance in life and we are blessed beyond what the economy, our businesses, and our trials try to tell us. If we still ourselves long enough to close our eyes, our hearts tell us that there are only a few things in life that have meaning for eternity and bring lasting fulfillment. Look for those things and life becomes alive again and again and again!

Friday, January 29, 2010

Deeds

I never fed water to thirsty, what is the point of giving out holy water.
I never helped people who have fallen, what is the point in shedding tears.

-I went to temple and prayed to god, as I prayed this thought came in my mind:
I never respected my mother & father then what is the point of praying in temple

-I went to religious gathering to hear gods words, as I was hearing Gods words a thought came in my mind:
I took birth as a human being but never took time to do good deed for humans, then what the point to be born as a human being.

-I donated a lot and prayed a lot, while I was donating, a thought came in my mind:
I never fed food to hungry – then what is the point of making donations.

-I went to take a dip in holy water and as I was taking a dip in holly water a thought came in my mind:
I washed my body off all the dirt, but didn’t wash my soul off all the sins, then what is the point of taking dip in holy water.

-I read bible, I read Koran and I read Gita, when I was reading the holy books a thought came in my mind:
I never shared the knowledge with anybody then what is the point of being called a scholar.

When you never got blessing from your elders and never did good deeds for mankind, then what is the point of going to holy places as you are not even close to getting to God.

By getting the blessing of the elders & doing good deeds for mankind is the only way to get to God.

PAA

I Miss You, Dad!!


I'm usually an upbeat, happy go lucky person, so I've been confused these past few days by a feeling of deep depression. Everything in my life is great, so why am I feeling physically lethargic, mentally drained and sad?

As I thought this situation, I realized that this is the time of year when my father passed away. I vividly recollect every moment; every memory. Flashbacks of sacrifices he made to keep us happy and safe - I remember how he got hurt badly in a scooter accident, but held me between his knees so I would not get hurt. I remember his devotion towards his parents.

Twenty nine years ago, on December 17 1980, the loving, wonderful man who had always been my rock, suddenly let go and moved on – without any warning, without kissing us goodbye, without telling us one last time how much he loved us – till this day I miss his hugs and his firm but gentle voice. He was only 42 years old, had lived a great life as a son, husband and father. I wasn't, and still am not ready to accept that he is gone. I've gone on with my life, but not a day passes when I don't think of his amazing smile, something I forgot to ask him, share successes and failures with him, wish we could laugh together, go horse back riding or I could receive his wise counsel on a troubling matter and changing relationships.

Even though I miss him every day, I'm usually able to enjoy my life and function just fine. However, each year around this time my subconscious reminds my body that it's a time of grief, and I feel "down" for a week or so.

Once I identify what's going on, I can relax, be gentle with myself, and get on with things. Still, it's disconcerting until I remember that I'm reliving my grief over having an empty space where my father should be. What always amazes me is that my subconscious and body remember, even when my conscious mind is focused elsewhere.

So, this month I'm reflecting on my father, and all the people who were physically in my life and are now in my heart. I'm also reflecting on how incredible the human mind/body connection is, and how grateful I am that they help remind me of the important stuff

Dad, I miss you and love you forever and more!